Spiritual Rape as Worship:
Dirty Little Men, Dirty Little Lies and
Phallocentric (definition) Religion
at Southwest Baptist University
The negotiations have failed.
There will be no Restorative Justice Process.
This morning, Marie writes:
I woke this morning from a dream, a memory of my freshman year: a Southwest Baptist University administrator coming up behind me and thrusting himself (apparently fully erect) against me, wrapping his arms around me, and whispering in a husky, mocking voice, "Just loving you with the love of Jesus."
Along with several other students, I had just given a report to an SBU administrator of this man's earlier (and repeated) advances. In my naivety, I was certain -- even confident -- that whatever "misunderstanding" there had been, this would now stop.
Though I didn't know it then, there would be no action taken against him. Instead the action would be taken against me.
Several days later, this "loving" administrator demanded that I be reassigned as his work-study "secretary,"
When I refused, I was forced to resign my work-study position, due to "insubordination."
However, as I was now out of his reach, the first administrator recruited a second administrator (and others) to assist in the molestation, all the while assuring my parents that they were "helping" me with my "shyness and inability to show normal affection."
I was, in his words to me, "so obviously sexually troubled and unable to show proper submission to a man."
This first administrator eventually left SBU, following allegations of incest.
The second administrator, however, took an entirely different tactic: he insisted on sitting on his desk with his legs spread in full erection, while savaging through an explicit listing of sexual sins that I, according to his "sources," had supposedly committed that week.
As I sat weeping and trembling (which he claimed was an admission of my "shame and guilt"), he shoved his crotch within inches from my face.
My declarations of innocence delighted him, as he explained with scriptural citations and exaggerated patience that, due to their inferior, fallen natures, all woman are whores and that woman -- especially intelligent woman -- must be constantly watched by "righteous" men.
He then began demanding (on several occasions) that I provide sexual information on my classmates, particularly those who had been molested as children, threatening expulsion if I refused. When I did refuse, he was red-faced with fury, although he could find no legitimate excuse to expel me.
During my sophomore year, however, he sought such an excuse, as my heartbroken parents were told that -- due to my "promiscuity" -- I would require testing for venereal disease (and to prove my virginity) before I could return to the university following the Christmas break.
Humiliated and stunned, I submitted to the testing, though, because of my virginity, the full procedure could not be completed.
When my parents reported the test results to him, the administrator began to circulate (as a representative of the university) a series of the vicious slanders to my friends, faculty, family and employers that I was "unworthy to teach or work in the ministry," because he had information that I had been a prostitute -- who specialized in oral sex.
Later, his story evolved. He claimed that I had an abortion and/or had borne a child through this prostitution and that I had participated in a drunken, barroom brawl and knifed a man in Springfield. As time progressed, his wicked contrivances became even more bizarre.
When several individuals started questioning his motives, accordingly to another student, the administrator told several athletes that if they could caught me alone, I could be raped with no fear of civil consequences ( it would be deemed "consensual sex"). This was in order to instruct me in "how to cooperate" and "to properly submit to men."
Since then, I have been little more than a hunted animal.
Even years later, I am constantly hounded by variations of these malicious slanders and their consequences.
Though this administrator was eventually dismissed for adultery, he was guilty of far more.
The details descend from there ... and, unfortunately, the situation has not improved to this day.
In order to cover the unsavory behavior of the "Southwest Baptist University family," the administrators of Southwest Baptist University has found new methods and means of spiritual rape -- each more immoral and unethical than the last, many of them potentially criminal.
The conspiracy to commit a felony is a felony -- except among Missouri Baptist Convention church members, in which case this is referred to as "fellowship."
This Restorative Justice Process has failed.
In large part, it failed because many of those harmed by these circumstances cannot bring themselves to "fellowship" with these individuals.
Because there has been no repentance, the evil is irredeemable.
There can be no restoration or reconciliation.
It is time now for RECONSTRUCTIVE JUSTICE.
The old corruption must be torn down and swept away to make way for rebuilding the new, to build a foundation for those who are willing to worship "in Spirit and in Truth."
Today, we begin RECONSTRUCTIVE JUSTICE.
Read related details at: RECONSTRUCTIVE JUSTICE: Missouri Baptist Convention and Southwest Baptist University Questions of the Heart.
Additional information to follow in new blog: RECONSTRUCTIVE JUSTICE to be opened on Sunday, September 13.
